Theory of Love Ep.6: “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind”

This episode is titled after the most fitting film for this episode because so much happens here. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is famously considered one of the best romance films of my lifetime. Here’s the synopsis for anybody who doesn’t know:

A man, Joel Barish, heartbroken that his girlfriend Clementine underwent a procedure to erase him from her memory, decides to do the same. However, as he watches his memories of her fade away, he realizes that he still loves her, and may be too late to correct his mistake.

That synopsis alone is so loaded for this episode and moving forward to the next episode since it will be from Khai’s POV. Episode 6 is full of Khai doing his best to build Third up and make him feel as good as possible before he shatters his heart. This is a semi-spoiler, but I feel like it’s worth talking about because of how apt this episode is titled. So much about memories and good memories and bad memories fills this episode and it’s just really well written.

In this episode, at one point, Third says in his narration,

“I want our world to have an MIB memory eraser. I want to forget all the times he treated me badly, leaving only the good times like this one now.”

Third’s love is so close to unconditional that it’s painful. He wants to only remember how


Khai loves him as his best friend and not remember how Khai hurts him as the man he’s in love with. It’s so deep to title this episode after a movie in which memory plays such an important part of it all. There are scenes this episode where you see the little ways that Khai and Third are perfect best friends, such as the scene where Khai surprises Third with a gift and plays with him like best friends to even if the guise is that he’s shopping for his girlfriend. It’s really Khai spending a day with Third and Third enjoying their time together.

This episode is really hard to talk about without spoiling it so this review won’t be very long, but I have to say there’s another beautiful instance of how perfect this show’s writing his in the scene where Third is talking to Khai about his girlfriend, Praew.

Third: “Hey Khai?”

Inner Third: “I love you”

Third: “Your girlfriend is beautiful”

Inner Third: “I love you. Do you hear me? I love you but I can’t say it.”

That scene alone brought me to tears and I really can’t get over how good the writing on this series is. It’s so perfectly dramatic without seeming overdone or cheesy. There’s so much emotion on both sides of this story that you can’t help but be eager to see Khai’s side of things when it flips to his POV. Seeing Third suffer for so long makes you wonder what the writers can do to make you not hate Khai anymore and start to root for them getting together.

And through all of this we have to talk about Two and Un’s progression. I think I officially think Un likes Two, not Third, and their interactions in this episode are great. punUn using his knowledge of Two’s crush to get Two to work for him is very clearly a ‘pulling pigtails’ kind of situation. Also the way he takes him out to dinner and treats him special is just sweet. Un is definitely into Two and I have high hopes this will go somewhere for them. I love these actors and can’t wait to see how their relationship progresses. As for Bone and Paan, welllll there’s a little snag that I think will keep them from ending up together. It’s sad but who knows. Maybe their relationship will take another turn we don’t suspect. Either way, these two couples are definitely not overshadowed too much by the main couple of Khai and Third.



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Theory of Love Ep.5: “10 Things I Hate About You”

This episode of Theory of Love is stylized after the iconic 90s romcom 10 Things I Hate About You and I love it. We’ve had the reference to the confession scene in this movie before on this show, but in this episode, Third decides to make a list of all the things he hates about Khai to try and help get over him and, just as it goes in the movie, it doesn’t really work. Especially when the first ‘list item’ is “he drives too fast”. This is a family favorite in my house so a 10 Things I Hate About You episode is such a nice surprise.

We start where we left off last episode, with Third once again crying because Khai is a d-bag who doesn’t deserve him. Honestly, after this last bullshit discovery (no spoilers, but you’ll know if you watched the last episode), I am so ready for Third to move on and find someone else. I don’t know how they are going to make Khai redeem himself after doing something so horrible to the person is supposed to be his best friend. He’s a bastard who makes Third cry and I hate him for it. BUT I love the performances. Off is just mindbogglingly good at playing this character.

Third is shown to be vulnerable but not weak. He gets out of Khai’s house and tries to move on. I also find the video confession he makes to be so well done. It shows he’s going through this pain as his catharsis. He finally gets to say everything he feels out loud and nobody will ever see it, but he got those words out. He gets to tell the world how he feels. Also this piece of writing as he films and saves the video to his website with the ‘only me’ privacy setting is just incredibly beautiful. The montage is one of the better scenes in this series so far, honestly.

“I spent around 15 minutes to tell my story through words and tears. It’s stored as a memory and it will be kept here forever.”

I have to say, on the front of Two and Lynn and Bone and Paan, I get the feeling Two/Lynn won’t ever happen. It seems Two is doomed to be the boy in love with his friend who has a boyfriend she loves and will never look his way. There’s also a hint that there might be a potential for Two to join the other team and end up with Un, though I thought Un liked Third? Maybe we’ll see what happens there. Bone/Paan might but what we learn this episode puts a big damper on that. I won’t spoil it but, MAN! It’s dramatic. It’s a big one. It’s one of those ‘conflict of morality’ types of situations between the two of them. Either way, I really want things to work for Bone and Paan. They’re very cute together.

The biggest scene of conflict in this episode is very much one of my favorites. I won’t spoil it, but Two and Bone both take Third’s side and prove to be smart guys who want to be good friends. They take his side even though Khai is their friend, too. Too many times in these shows, people stay neutral or stay out of it, but this time they stand up for the friend who was wronged and protect him against the friend who wronged him. It’s such a refreshing showing of healthy friendships. They know Khai is wrong and they aren’t too afraid it will ruin their group dynamic to take Third’s side. They have a trust in their friendship that fighting won’t fuck up the dynamic. It’s so nice to see male friendships that aren’t tragically toxic but are very complicated and realistic.

One of the best scenes in this entire episode is the one in which Third is up to his usual ‘cry in the shower’ routine and Two stands outside the door to talk to him and try to help him work through his feelings. He gives one of the most moving quotes in the episode when he says to Third that he doesn’t have to be strong all the time. Third tells him that he’s angry at himself for being the Third that loves Khai, not the Third that is Khai’s friend, and Two tells him,

“But here and now, you can be Third that loves Khai.”

The way that Two loves Third as his friend and supports him and doesn’t give a flying twosadfart in space that he’s gay for Khai, who only cares that he’s hurting because of it, is so beautiful. That type of friendship is so wonderful and to see it here is so moving and I love it so much. The way Two just stands outside while Third breaks down after he tells him, ‘it’s okay for you to be vulnerable with me’ is so freaking amazing. You can see on Two’s face how much he is hurting for Third and that is friendship, folks. That’s true friendship. Romances are great, but friendships are what I love the most about REALLY well-written scripts.

This episode ends with what I hope is going to be a turning point because it’s very clear that Khai saw the video Third made when he was using his laptop. He shows up to make up and be friends again, but I hope he starts to understand what he’s done to Third all this time. The look on his face says it all. He knows what he did. He knows what Third feels. If he still hadn’t worked it out by now, he knows now. I cannot WAIT to see how this khaisawplays out because I truly want to believe that this whole thing is unreliable narrator and Khai isn’t entirely heartless. Sure, he did what he did. But Third’s POV means that we only see his perception of two Khais: His best friend who loves him and the slut who doesn’t love him the way he loves girls. Because Khai is too complex of a character for us to not get to see him earning his forgiveness. This show is too well written for the shitbag that is Khai to get with Third in the end without adequate ass-kissing and suffering on his own part. Now that he knows what Third is suffering through, I really have hopes this is going to go off big time and become EPIC!

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Theory of Love Ep.4: “Crazy Stupid Love”

This one was a real turning point in the series so far. Episode 4, titled after the movie Crazy Stupid Love follows the vibe far more than the plot, because there’s some Crazy, some Stupid, and some Love all rolled up in one episode. Crazy Stupid Love is a classic and always enjoyable to watch.

Cal Weaver (Steve Carell) is living the American dream. He has a good job, a beautiful house, great children and a beautiful wife, named Emily (Julianne Moore). Cal’s seemingly perfect life unravels, however, when he learns that Emily has been unfaithful and wants a divorce. Over 40 and suddenly single, Cal is adrift in the fickle world of dating. Enter, Jacob Palmer (Ryan Gosling), a self-styled player who takes Cal under his wing and teaches him how to be a hit with the ladies.

However, episode 4 is not a funny tale of navigating the dating field at middle age. Instead, it’s a lesson in broken hearts and lying friends. It’s also, however, one of the most incredibly written episodes of the series.

sausageIn this episode, the Gangsters are selling sausages – and yes, there’s just as much innuendo as you can imagine – to try and win the coveted #1 top sellers for the school fair so they can get first pick at studio time. Their draw is that they’re handsome and girls can do ‘whatever they want to us’ for buying sausages. However, in the midst of all of these flirtatious girls, there’s also a weird amount of Khai flirting with Third. As a viewer we can’t know how it’s going to go, but it’s pretty freaking obvious it’s not a good thing.

One of the things that make this episode so good is how it builds you up and then rips the ground out from under you. There are sweet moments where Khai and Third are just two best friends having the time of their lives and living it up. And there are lines that make you remember why Third can’t give up that tiny, lingering hope that Khai is worth all of this pain.

“Don’t sweet talk me like I’m the only one. There are hundreds who are cute for you.”

“No, only you is enough.”

Also this episode has a fair bit of development with the other two Gangsters and their (I assume) future partners! I haven’t spoken a lot about Bone and Paan, but while a lot of viewers don’t seem too keen on them, I really like the way Paan and Bone sort of flirt by talking about movies. In this episode, Bone asks Paan to come see a movie with him at paanthe festival, and it’s just so cute how eager he is to see her. She’s a beautiful film buff who comes to his coffee shop and takes his film recommendations, so it’s easy to see how he likes her. He’s known to be a player just like the other two, but with her, he’s the one smitten instead of girls all lusting after him. She’s also older than him, so it makes it even more interesting. He’s not after some hot freshman, he’s after a grown woman who shares his love of movies. I really hope things go well for Bone and he gets to be with Paan after all.

twounAs for Two, I see a budding chemistry with our old friend Un. I really thought Un liked Third, but I know how these dramas work, and when you have two characters that strike up this kind of animosity, it’s usually sexual tension in the end. I can’t blame Two, Un is hot as hell. I guess we’ll see how things go there, but I definitely think that this whole ‘Don’t go after my best friend’s girlfriend’ is code for ‘LET ME LOVE YOU’. Doesn’t hurt that Un is a known gay or bi guy, so it sets it up ever better.

But before you get too complacent, though I won’t spoiler you, I’ll end the review with the inevitable shot of where poor Third, the crying king, ends up at the end of every episode.


Anyways, the episode was excellent, one of the best yet, and as always, you can watch Theory of Love for free on GMMTV’s Youtube Channel. Episodes go up on Saturdays, subtitles are usually out Monday!

Theory of Love Ep.3: Friends With Benefits

Episode 3 of Theory of Love is titled after the film Friends with Benefits, starring Justin Timberlake and Mila Kunis. The synopsis of Friends with Benefits is as follows:

Jamie (Mila Kunis) is a New York-based executive recruiter who entices Dylan (Justin Timberlake), an art director from Los Angeles, to take a job at the New York office of GQ magazine. Finding that they have much in common, the two become fast friends. Feeling jaded by a number of broken romances, Dylan and Jamie decide that they are ready to quit looking for true love and focus on having fun. However, complications unfold when the two best pals add sex to their relationship.

I can definitely reassure you there is no sex between Third and Khai in this episode, but I can absolutely say that the domesticity of a couple comes through in heaps in this episode. Essentially, after living together for a while, they develop this wonderful(ly one-sided) routine in which Third is basically a sweet little housewife and Khai is a continued man-whore. It’s pretty painful to watch, but the issue is that isn’t all there is to Khai.

This episode shows us a unique side to their relationship in which they are so domestic together and so soft with each other. There are so many scenes where you understand why Third can’t quit loving the sweet man that Khai is when it’s just the two of them. With an Ikea shopping sequence straight from of 500 Days of Summer it’s easy to see the way that Khai gives Third hope even when you don’t trust it as a viewer. Below are the two scenes in question:

(Note: Though I have the link set to begin at 2:50 for Theory of Love, one some browsers, it begins at the beginning. Sorry.)

It’s not hard to understand why Third keeps that hope. He’s loved Khai for three years and he wants so badly to keep him in his life, whether as a lover or his best friend, and with Khai giving him these moments of happiness together, just the two of them, it’s so hard to blame Third for putting up with all the bullshit.

Even when Fahsai enters the story and rears her ugly head and tries to take over, and even when Khai prioritizes her over Third, you can’t blame him because every time Khai seems absolutely irredeemable and unworthy, something happens to make Third forgive him. I think one of the most significantly heartbreaking examples of this is when (minor hurtspoiler) Khai kicks Third out so he can get laid and he says he doesn’t know how long it might be because, “I can go all night long”. Third’s response is so freaking heartbreaking and yet you understand why he’s playing the long game and is willing to deal with all of the crap Khai throws at him.

As horrible as Khai is, the way he redeems himself is simple: He puts Third first when it matters. There’s a scene in this episode where a girl breaks something of Third’s and you hate how Khai is more worried she cut herself than worried about Third’s beloved item, and yet at the end of it all, he has the item repaired even though it’s an entirely replaceable item. It’s a reminder that he does love Third. That’s one of the most amazing things about this show: Third could so easily be absolutely pathetic. He could be annoyingly pathetic and you don’t give a fuck. But instead, Third is understandable. You feel for him because you see all the bad but also see the way when Khai is good to him, Khai gives him the love he craves and can’t give up. I think nothing is more perfect of an example of this than the quote that keeps Third from leaving after all the bad stuff this episodes throws at him.

“With girls I use my body. With you I use my heart.” – Khai to Third

Once again, Theory of Love is available for free at GMMTV’s official youtube. New episodes go up every Saturday and usually there are subtitles by Monday or Tuesday!


Theory of Love EP.2: “Love, Actually”

Episode 2 of Theory of Love is stylized after the film Love, Actually. Continuing with our romantic comedy trend, this is definitely one of the most famous romantic comedies in recent history. Though I don’t actually like Love, Actually, it is important that the viewer goes into this episode review with at least a basic knowledge of the plot of the film:

Nine intertwined stories examine the complexities of the one emotion that connects us all: love. Among the characters explored are David (Hugh Grant), the handsome newly elected British prime minister who falls for a young junior staffer (Martine McCutcheon), Sarah (Laura Linney), a graphic designer whose devotion to her mentally ill brother complicates her love life, and Harry (Alan Rickman), a married man tempted by his attractive new secretary.

This is very relevant because as we get into episode 2, we see how this entanglement of connected stories is all based around these four friends and their experiences in university as they study film here. There are various types of relationships, both romantic and platonic, and as we move forward, they’re all connected together by this group of Gangsters.

At the onset of this episode, the first and most important thing we discover is that of all the people in this series, Two is the REAL MVP of friendship. When he discovers that Third is in love with Khai, his only reaction is that, “Khai doesn’t date friends, what are you going to do?” In Thai culture, being gay still isn’t something widely accepted. Though there are tons of BL series coming out of Bangkok these days, in general there’s still the usual homophobia you experience even in the most tolerant societies. So to have a ‘player’ like Two (because remember, every one of them apart from Third gets the girls really easily) just roll with it like, ‘shit, my friend is gay and in love with our other friend, how am I going to help them end up together?’ is such an incredibly positive male friendship. Two in this episode becomes, by far, my favorite person in this entire story.

Another major even tin this episode is that we’re introduced to a new character who I believe will become significant: Un (or An? I’m not sure which it is but the subtitles say unUn so I’ll go with it), played by Earth Pirapat Watthanasetsiri. Un is shown to us to be a very popular guy at the school, and he’s also friends with Third. I’ve seen this actor in a lot of stuff, and I’m always super annoyed he only had one main role casting and that series was kind of shitty, because this guy is an incredible actor. I only hope we get some good scenes with him further along in the series.

There’s a very significant amount of moments where you get the idea that Khai knows how Third feels but doesn’t want him to confess and ruin the balance of their friendship in this episode. It’s so interesting to see how he looks at Third in certain moments when Third is sucking up the courage to finally confess something. I’m really enjoying the acting here. Off and Gun have a history of playing a couple and the chemistry is so well done that their acting together is almost better than their acting in scenes with other characters (which is common with actors who have good chemistry, hiring them together on other projects). I’m really happy with the casting for everybody in this series so far. As I said before, I’ve seen most of them in other things, but every character is so fully realized in a way that in these dramas isn’t very common.

The most enjoyable aspect of this episode is the way that Two and Third decide the best way to confess his feelings is to study up on famous romantic scenes in movies as a way to do it in a big gesture kind of way and not be so shy about it. The montage of him imagining various confession tactics is absolutely hilarious. The wig in the Dear Dakonda scene is hilarious. The best one of all, however, is the 10 Things I Hate About You football stadium confession scene. Anybody who has seen 10 Things I Hate About You is very familiar with this very famous scene in which Heath Ledger’s character confesses very publicly to Julia Stiles Character.

I won’t spoil how the actual confession ends up going, but let’s just say it can be summed up by the following quote from Third:

“His stupidness makes me want to give up.”

I can’t say that Two’s plan in the next phase is the best plan, but it lends to some seriously precious moments. There’s so much that could go wrong with his plan, but the domesticity of being roommates is almost as happy as it is painful, knowing that this could all go wrong so easily. I have no idea what will happen later on, but seeing them sharing a home only gives me hope that things work out for them. And please know, it’s not inevitable. These types of series aren’t always a happy ending. I went into this knowing that they man well not end up together, though I have serious hope they will.

The way this series plays so seriously into the movie theme is honestly one of the most unique things I’ve ever watched. The effort they go into in reminding you these are film students and this is all based on romance movies could be annoying and heavy handed, but instead it crosses over into the technical aspect as well. These series often aren’t the top notch of technical film-making, but this one has excellence in so many things, and for this episode, what really stands out to me is the sound work. The foley work in this one is really intricate. There are so many finite movements that have very proper sound work done such as the handling of headphones or the movement of very small items. In a Hollywood film, of course these are commonly well done, but in these types of series it’s really a standout to me.

And of course, in the same way, the story keeps coming back to the idea of screenwriting for Third. He’s a writer more than anything as his specialty in the ‘gang’ and for him to highlight ever point in his journey to be with Khai as a plot development is just beautifully well done writing.

“I don’t know how this is going to end, but I know that I’m in the stage of a turning point.”

I can’t wait for more of this wonderful series, and I hope some of you check it out as well. As always, you can watch Theory of Love for free on GMMTV’s youtube channel! New episodes go up Saturdays with subtitles usually by Monday!


Theory of Love Ep.1: “เพื่อนสนิท” (Dear Dakanda)

Though I haven’t reviewed anything in a fat while, I think that this is a series worth devoting my time to reviewing not only as a TV lover but as a movie lover, as well. I really think some of you will enjoy this drama quite a lot. Theory of Love is a Thai drama that, though I am a lover of Thai dramas in general, might be a master-class level of artistry that any film/TV lover could appreciate.

Following the lives of four third year film students, affectionately known as The Gangsters, Theory of Love tells the story of Third (played by Gun Atthaphan Phunsawat), Khai (played by Off Jumpol Adulkittiporn), Two (played by White Nawat Phumphothingam), and Bone (played by Mike Chinnarat Siriphongchawalit). The four of them are the most popular guys on campus because they’re all experts in their own area of focus and they’re handsome guys. Khai, Bone, and Two can get any girls they want whenever they want to get them with their popularity and good looks.

But Third has a secret: he’s been in love with Khai since they met the first day of university.

Left to right: Khai, Bone, Third, Two

What makes Theory of Love so unique isn’t the (very common) ‘secretly in love with my best friend’ trope, but rather how this series approaches things. Ignoring the incredible acting, the intricate and perfect writing, and cinematography that some Hollywood films could learn a thing or two from, this series about film students presents itself in a way that every episode is titled after a famous romance movie and has Easter eggs from that movie throughout that episode.

This first episode is based on the film Dear Dakanda. I planned to review every episode and the movie it’s titled after and post them simultaneously, but I cannot find a single way to access Dear Dakanda, so this first episode will have to be one I don’t do that with. However, for both your and my information, let’s look at the summary of Dear Dakanda.

“Dear Dakanda” poses the question “What would you do when you fall in love with your best friend?”

Khaiyoi, a shy young art student, develops feelings for a classmate Dakanada. The couple become close friends, but Khaiyoi is unable to express his true feelings for her.

It’s entirely understandable why they started with Dear Dakanda to get us started in what will be a journey of ups and downs for a young man in love with his best friend.

Before getting into the actual first episode after giving an overview of what this show is about, I’ll begin by saying that Thai actors are like British actors: If you’ve seen them in one thing, you’ll see them in more. I’ve seen all but Bone in various other things, sometimes in multiple things, and I knew going in that Gun is one of the best actors I’ve ever seen on a screen. This person would already have been cast in an Oscar winning film if Hollywood looked for true talent outside of Western actors more often. And let me tell you, Third is possibly his best performance out of all the amazing ones I’ve seen.

gun1We meet Third doing something many of those reading this who follow me have done: reviewing movies. Our first interaction with him is watching Third record movie reviews for romance movies, including Dear Dakanda, for his vlog, which is shown to be very popular, but made even more so by the handsome man hanging around in the background of each video: Khai.

For the first episode, the intro scene is very long (like 10 minutes) before the title sequence because Third is setting up the entire story for us: he met Khai first day of khai1university when they were doing an activity where they wore characters from famous movies on headbands and the new students have to find the matching character from that same movie, and when he looked into Khai’s eyes, he knew. As we learn about who Khai is as a person through Third listing his flaws, we learn he’s not the type of guy that Third has any chance of getting to love him back.

“Even though Khai has countless flaws, those flaws can’t compare to this one: He makes me fall in love.”


The use of lighting and cinematography in this series is so perfect at showing us the dichotomy of being in love with someone and having those warm, fuzzy feelings as a contrast to his acting. You can see the anguish in his eyes as he looks at the love of his life who can never know how much he loves him. It’s so smart and so effective in giving us this dream world feeling while the actor reminds us it’s just that, a dream world.

And then we have the INCREDIBLE intro-music for this series. This drama has one of the best OSTs I’ve ever heard, but this introduction fully embodies the spirit and feeling of this drama in that it is musically hopeful yet sorrowful? It’s almost nostalgic or wistful feeling where you know there is pain but there’s that lingering hope of ‘just maybe’. The music is just perfect for what we know is going to be a long, painful road ahead of us.

That said, it isn’t all doom and gloom. There’s a lot of comedy that doesn’t feel out of place, such as Third’s ‘cry fully clothed in the shower’ scenes that we get in this first episode. There are plenty of comedic moments and light-hearted friendship themes that it isn’t all drama and depression. I really enjoy that they find a perfect balance in this first episode to not put people off from continuing but rather bring a balance so that it’s not so heartbreaking you can’t take continuing with it.

In this first episode, we get a good sense of how badly Khai takes advantage of Third’s friendship, and it almost makes you want to hate him at points, but then he turns around and does something so kind and loving that you remember that, though he’s kind of a jerk, Khai loves Third so much, even if it’s just as his best friend. That’s the best part about Third’s character: You can’t find him pathetic, because for all the bad shit Khai does to him (not too extreme, but the little things build up), he turns it around and is a loyal, faithful friend who cares for Third too much for Third to give up on him just because he asks so much of him and doesn’t return the favors often.

Last thing I want to touch on is how Third’s first person narration of his internal thoughts is so perfect. I normally hate that sort of thing, but for once, it’s absolutely the best thing they could have done with this show.

“I love him, but it means nothing to him.”


They could have honestly let this entire show be carried on Gun’s acting alone, but they don’t. They put so much thought into every detail, into the narration, into the cinematography, into the writing of these utterly perfect lines, and even into making each character as perfectly flawed as possible but not irredeemable (at least in this first episode), and it all adds up to be one of the best romance dramas I’ve ever watched.

I absolutely cannot wait to get onto the next episode and review it as well, and I really hope some of you give this series a shot after reading this. This series can be accessed for free and with subtitles usually within 3 days of the newest episode going up on GMMTV’s official YouTube. Please watch the official YouTube to appreciate this wonderful drama and feel free to reach out to me at my Twitter to talk about it when you do!

(Also if anybody can get me a link to Dear Dakanda I absolutely welcome the help!)


A Look Into Me: The TV Lover

I have asked for TV shows to watch and have had several recommendations, but among them were Game of Thrones and for some reason, The Last Kingdom.

I assume this is because I have a history of love for historical series, which isn’t wrong. I love historical fiction. Let me tell you why I have tried and DO NOT watch both of these:


I don’t read or watch anything with rape in it other than a single instance in which revenge is sought upon it. AKA Black Sails. ONCE there is a rape scene in Black Sails and shortly thereafter, because a prostitute is being raped, a lady pirate bands together with others and they MURDER all the rapists.

The only rape scene I’ve stomached since this is the one in the movie Wind River and after that, I fast-forward through it on re watch. There is no reason for rape in anything 90% of the time because there are 90 zillion other ways to progress a plot. Wind River is a special case, it’s about a known issue in America, the rape and murder rates of Native Americans. But IN GENERAL, you can have a female character progress WITHOUT her being fucking raped and I’m SICK of disgusting rape fantasy dick holes pretending that in the past, women were more raped than they are today like we don’t get raped at an ALARMING RATE these days, too!

Either way. If you can have dragons you can have zero rape. Just saying. Have your dragons murder would-be rapists. Until then, fuck you and the dragon you rode in on.

I’ll stick to TV shows with no rape.


Love Sick, Season 2


So the other day I gave a brief intro and review of Season 1 of this Thai series called Love Sick. I now have seen all of season 2, and let me tell you….

This show was ABOVE AND BEYOND amazing! Oh my Gosh, you guys, this show is just quality TV. The main reason I watched this was it was a recommended gay romance series, and I have such low expectations for those that this one just blew my mind. The main reason it’s so good is because it’s not just about the main couple. There are so many other side plots and branches off of main stories and things of that nature that you cannot escape getting sucked into all the different characters lives. 1435241382

In season 2, there’s more focus on the girls at the convent and in particular, Jeed, Grace, Nan, and all of the drama revolving around those girls. Jeed in particular is a character you often hate but then find sympathy for (up until the ending where she does something TRULY WTF and the show just like lets her get away with it? Idk. That was a serious wtf for this show). Also, there’s a lot of drama about Aim in the earlier half of the series that makes you both hate her and feel sad for her. This show is just so good at making you look at these characters as if they are real people.

This also extends to some of the boys who get more focus in season 2. Season 1 had introduced most of the boys that didn’t get as much attention, but season 2 really gets in on d7837c53c43c1b93e4dffdff6fe88b30-lovesick-seriesPer and Mick and Pete and how they are linked to the rest of the main boys. I would say that Per is very much a Jeed of the boys group because this season reveals his best friend/next door neighbor, Win (who looks SUSPICIOUSLY LIKE figure skater Shoma Uno or more closely Shoma Uno’s little brother Itsuki, who looks like Shoma with smaller eyes, which is exactly what Win looks like), is gay. There is a whole lot of drama with Per and Win and Win’s boyfriend Mark. You go from thinking Per’s an amazing friend to thinking maybe Per and Win will get together to hating Per’s guts for something he does to rooting for him again for figure out he was an asshole before. Again, these kids are just so realistic and believable that you can’t help but see them as people, not just characters.

Also, Pang is still the sweetest baby sister. She’s so cute and she loves her big brother so much that you feel happy that Phun has someone like her always on his side. She actually reminds me a lot of my baby sister, Dallas.vlcsnap-3489022

But since the main focus of Love Sick is the romance between Phun and Noh, one of the main reasons this series is so amazing is because – SPOILER ALERT – they get a happy ending! There are bumps along the way, sure, but at its heart, the relationship between Phun and Noh is something so beautiful and so pure. It’s an amazing depiction of teenagers discovering who they are and being afraid of learning they’re queer but so adorably in love with each other that they can’t ignore it. The acting alone between Phun and Noh is worth watching just because when Phun looks at Noh, it’s got that “I love this human” quality that really takes skill for young actors to fully convey.


There are only two season of this show, but it has a real ending, not some thrown together mess, and I cannot stress enough how high-quality of a TV series this is. There are flaws, sure, but overall if you make it past the first few episodes, this series will suck you in, get you invested, and make you fall in love with all these kids and the friendships and relationships they have, gay or straight.

Watch Love, Sick. You won’t regret it.

Love Sick (2014), Season One

Friends, while we all know my love for Thai movies (see: Bad Genius being one of the best movies of 2017) and especially Thai LGBT movies (Ever seen Love, Love Me??? SO GOOD!) but I’ve never actually watch a Thai drama before I fell down a hole of link-clicking and stumbled upon something absolutely magical:


Love Sick

Love Sick is a Thai teen drama that centers around a group of kids who all know each other through various connections and the events and relationships in their lives. The series focuses mainly on Noh and Phun, two boys who go to the school the boys in this series go to. What starts with Phun needing a fake-boyfriend ends up being a series full of drama, twists and turns, and a dozen different story-lines going on between the various kids involved.

Season 1 is what I recently binged in every spare moment I had over the past week. Lunch break from work? Get in an episode! Doing cardio at the gym? EPISODE! Season 1 is 12 episodes long (with a season 2 that I think I read is 36) all of them approx 40 minutes run-time. Since I binged season 1, I’m going to do basically a list of the important people then a review of the season.

Here are the cast of main characters:

Noh: The most central character of all, Noh attends the boys school that most of the teen boys in this series attend. He’s the president of the music club at school and the whole series begins with him needing more funding for their club.

Phun: His father wants him to date a family friend’s daughter and he needs his little sister’s help to get out of it. The catch is that his sister is obsessed with BL (boys love) and he thinks she will only help if he has a boyfriend instead of his actual girlfriend. He offers to get Noh more funding if he pretends to be his boyfriend in front of his sister.

Pang: Phun’s baby sister who, with all her other 14 year old friends, ship all the hot and popular boys they know.

Aim: Phun’s girlfriend who attends school with Noh’s best friend/sort-of girlfriend.

Yuri (also called Yu often): Noh’s best friend who decides to start telling people they’re a couple and he just goes along with it, even though he has no feelings for her.

Jeed: A new girl at the girls school who is poor and therefore not very popular.

Khom: A boy who likes Jeed and becomes her boyfriend even though he’s also poor and pretending not to be.

Grace: A mean girl who tries to set the other girls against Jeed.

Mo: A girl attending the girls school who lives with her boyfriend, Moan, who is a cheating asshat.

The Angels: Hyper-femme gay boys at the boys school who are supported by many but bullied by a few.

(Obviously, there are a lot more characters, many of whom are important, but these are the most central ones for season 1)


To be honest, the first episode is a hot mess. I almost didn’t continue the series after this. I see what they were trying to do now that I’ve seen the whole season, and that is introduce all the main characters. They try to start it out with everybody important on the screen for Aim’s birthday party, but the real take-away from this episode is, “Why does it feel like I’ve missed a lot???” You have fights and friendships and conversations that make no sense without context. If the synopsis didn’t include the talk about two teen boys who fake-date then fall in love, I would have had on clue who was supposed to be in my focus. If anything, Jeed seems like the main character in this episode. If you can muscle through this beginning, however, you start to get into the real story: The music club needs more funding and when Noh goes to the student council, he runs into Phun who offers him an opportunity. DUM DUM DUUUUM! It’s not the best beginning, and it took me a while to warm up to Noh, but it gets better after episode 1.

What we end up with through the series is a set of storylines that interweave that we follow along with. There’s the drama with Mo and Moan, but also with the introduction of Golf, a family friend of Mo’s that there is some tension with that never fully get explored in season 1. There’s Jeed and Khom and all the other girls around Jeed, including Mo. There’s Yuri, who is classmates with Jeed and Mo and Grace and all those girls, but is also Noh’s not-really-girlfriend. She calls herself that, and he agrees with her, but their dates are largely one-sided. Then there’s Phun and Aim and their relationship, there’s the music club, there’s Earn who is in the music club and has feelings for Noh so he’s jealous of Phun and Phun is jealous of him. Then beyond relationship drama, there’s the Angels and the struggle between those who bully them and those who support them.


And while this sounds like your typical teen soap opera, it’s actually really full of moving story lines, very realistic issues, and some pretty great acting. The girl who plays Jeed is really good. Jeed isn’t the most likeable character, but you still feel like she’s REAL the whole time. Noh is harder to get into, honestly, than Jeed is. Noh isn’t poorly acted, and the character isn’t flat, but there’s just this thing Noh has where the actor plays him as not one to put his emotions out there. You have one scene in particular that’s so gut-wrenching because Phun wears his heart on his sleeve, and when he’s upset you see it straight away, but Noh seems to be fully cool and collected until suddenly he’s crying and you’re reminded, ‘oh yeah, Noh feels just as confused and conflicted as Phun does’. It is effective and unique of a performance, but it’s harder to connect to.

I love that this series doesn’t shy away from things. It is a more realistic depiction of teens in girls schools and boys schools and the way that girls aren’t so very different from boys and vice versa. There’s a lot of emphasis on the individuality of the characters. Even in the ‘mean girls’ group, the different girls aren’t just mirrors of one another, but seem like real-life girls. The Angels group are particularly great for this because you have a couple of sets of really femme boys set alongside a good handful of other boys who are also obviously queer but not stereotypical femme like the Angels. And the Angels aren’t the butts of every joke, either. Most of the students at the school accept them as just another clique and even defend them against the guy who doesn’t want to rock the boat with the teachers and parents.

What I love most of all, however, is Phun and Noh’s relationship and how it develops over season 1. It goes from not-even-friends to friends to something more, and though they come to an understanding (I won’t spoiler it, but let’s say it’s very mature but kinda questionable how they choose to handle their feelings), they’re never shown having a gay panic over one another. They don’t let their friends know they feel that way about each other, but it’s not because of that. Their relationship drama is based on girlfriends already in their lives, not the fact they’ve never been gay before. HOWEVER, that isn’t glossed over. I love that there is a depiction of fear of homophobia (and real homophobia for other characters), but these kids are mature enough to have more serious issues to face than just ‘I’m gay, oh god’. It’s very developed and nuanced of a relationship.

Honestly, I would say this is like the Thai Degrassi except I never liked Degrassi. The feeling is the same, but it’s just far more enjoyable of a series. Also way less depressing. I cannot WAIT to get into season 2, and I really hope someone checks this one out after reading this post!


So let me know what you guys think. Do you know this series? Do you like it? Have you heard of it but not seen it? If you have seen it, do you agree with my points on season 1? As always, you can hit me up here or over at Twitter. Feel free to come chat Love Sick with me any time!

Tonight We Said Goodbye to Halt and Catch Fire


I’ve watched a lot of TV shows in my life, but tonight I watched the finale of one of the most incredibly inventive, sincere, and unique TV shows I’ve ever watched. There will never be anything quite like Halt and Catch Fire again, I believe. Tonight’s end was the culmination of four years of something so special that I’m not sure how to put into words how grateful I am to AMC for finishing this series the way it deserved to be finished when by all rights it should have been cancelled long ago. There were weeks that this show got less than 200,000 viewers. For the duration, the ratings were rock bottom. I think there were a few episodes that, at its peak, might have hit 2 million viewers, but for the most part, nobody watched this show. It never got the awards recognition it deserved, it never got the viewers it deserved, and it never got the sheer attention that this incredible show warranted.

And I feel sorry for everybody that missed out.

Tonight’s two-hour finale was pretty much just a ‘everybody says goodbye’ kind of episode, one that let us see where everyone ended up and how their lives are going. But more than that, it was really about new beginnings and everybody continuing on in the same way that though some things must come to an end, it doesn’t mean that they weren’t worth having in the first place. Joanie left to travel the world and find herself halt-and-catch-fire-episode-409-donna-bishe-2-935with her new beginning. Cameron and Joe, though they really did love each other, just weren’t meant to be, so Joe went back east and found a new start, this time as a humanities teacher. Haley keeps her dad close as she starts over with who she wants to be and who she’s growing into. Cameron planned to leave and travel the country and start over, while Donna finally has reached the point where she realizes she wants to create again. The final visit to the Mutiny building they did together was just something incredible. That whole Phoenix scene was something so beautiful and such a perfect synecdoche of the entire story of their lives. I absolutely loved that the ending is a new beginning for Donna and Cameron. Their friendship/rivalry has been something so beautiful to watch build and change that this seems like the absolute most perfect ending for them, in that it’s not an ending at all.

Halt and Catch Fire involves so much that I want to see on television and rarely do, and all of it was in one package. The only reason I even heard of this show is because my friend was a big Lee Pace fan and talked about it. I didn’t watch it until after season 1 had already aired, and within a single episode, I was hooked. These characters were all so human. It sounds simple, but it’s not. Very few pieces of fiction manage to capture halt-and-catch-fire-episode-409-donna-bishe-5-935characters who are so real that you can understand them even when you hate what they’re doing. They all had flaws. There were no perfect people, it was always just people. The way they grew and changed over the years was just beautifully written and crafted into something perfectly believable. There’s just something so wonderful about the way we watched a decade of some people’s lives on our screen. That’s really what it feels like.

Artistically, there’s so much to be said about the way this show was crafted all these years. The cinematography is unparalleled, the sound work is impeccable, the costuming is phenomenal, the performances of the actors was always just fantastic, and this was just something so well directed that it never, not once, felt anything less than authentic. But more than that, there’s so much content here that fulfills the wants in representation of women and queer people that’s missing.

The women in this show. Good God, every woman in this entire four season series is a person. That sounds ridiculously obvious to those who don’t recognize the failures of female representation in media, but to have the women matter so much and be flawed and more than just their relationship to a man is something so special. Donna in halt-and-catch-fire-episode-410-cameron-davis-935particular is so amazing because she exemplifies everything a woman can be all in one person: She’s a mother and a wife, but she’s also an intellectual and a creator. She can solder circuits and build a company, she can become a high-powered business leader in the tech industry in the 80s and 90s and still have compassion and humanity. This character not just being what she was but doing it alongside another woman of similar strengths and weaknesses and working together and against each other and just being people is something so revolutionary because you don’t see that on movies and TV. You don’t see women doing their own thing without sacrificing the other parts of their lives. You don’t see women being women, not just a wife or mother or love interest or daughter unless they are not those things at all. To show women who are badass but not cold and distant, nurturing but still leaders, the sum of both mother/lover AND entrepreneur all without sacrificing either thing… it’s just beautiful.

Similarly, this was the first show I ever saw with a bisexual character whose sexuality was never the butt of a joke. They don’t shy away from Joe being bisexual a single time. The whole series long, who he is is never used as a plot device. Shit, he was openly bisexual in the 80s and 90s on this show and yet it never turned to something about AIDs or his sexuality being used against him some way. He’s just a character who happens to be bisexual. We see him with men and women and it’s never a big deal. It’s just him. As ahalt-and-catch-fire-episode-410-joe-pace-2-935 bisexual person, when I first realized what was happening, I couldn’t believe that it was real. I was seeing a bisexual person whose sexuality wasn’t a punchline or tragedy trope. Even though his main love interest for the duration of the series is a woman, they don’t magically turn him straight, he has male lovers and boyfriends in the background and it’s never shied away from. And then to have the reveal at the end that Hailey, one of the children we’ve watched grow up, be a lesbian and have it, once again, not be a big deal, it was just great. Hers was a bit more of a plot point, because she was struggling and the ‘why’ turned out to be that she’s met a girl she likes, but at no point did anybody confront her over it. Even Joe, he just recognized it in her and didn’t treat her differently. There’s just something so different about how this show dealt with sexuality that, much like the women, it feels different and special and I’m so thankful I got to see this.

On episode one, we saw Joe MacMillan roll into town and change the lives of a whole group of people forever, and much like he said both to Gordon and to Cameron, he was ‘the thing that gets you to the other thing’. He got them to where they are. He altered the courses of their lives forever. I think it’s safe to say that after four seasons, Halt and Catch Fire was the thing that got us all to the other thing, and that is the experience of a rock solid TV show that will forever alter each and every viewer’s expectations for television in the future.

I will miss this show more than I probably have ever missed any show, and that’s saying a lot. I genuinely am grateful to AMC for giving us something this wonderful. I hope that you all have enjoyed this journey that we’ve shared together, and as always, and for the last time, I welcome you to comment or tweet me and keep the conversation about this groundbreaking TV series going.

Thank you, all of you, for reading along with me for the past two seasons in which I’ve been doing these review posts. I’m very grateful for your interactions.